Version from May 17th 2021

Thank you!

I am deeply grateful to Life in the form of Roger Castillo, Magdi Badawy, Rupert Spira, Gautam Sachdeva, and many Zoom Friends that became like family to me.

Gratitude also to my wife Beth and daughter Tessa (9); one day we will speak the same language.

What do I really want?

Roger Castillo asks this fundamental question: What do I really want?

No matter what we believe we want in this world of change, at the end of the day we look for peace, for happiness; feeling comfortable in our own skin.

Unaware of the spiritual, formless dimension of Awareness/Christ, we seek our happiness in circumstances and overlook the most obvious, here and now.

Hypnotized by "I am body-mind"

"This world" is what we experience filtered through our individualized thinking, feeling and perceiving.

We grow up in a me-bubble that gives us the impression of being a separate autonomous entity, a personal doer.

We grow into the sense of "me, I am my body-mind" and rarely question its reality. The Bible calls this "born from below".


Knowing our true nature is the most natural. It is the birthright of every human being, but somehow through faulty thinking, a sense of fear, unworthiness or insecurity we choose the familiarity of our me-bubble over the peace and sweetness of being knowingly the presence of Awareness.

Thank you Magdi, for your pointers:
Slow down when you use the word "I"!
I am is consciousness, not body-mind.

So from now on we regard no one according to the flesh. Although we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away. Behold, the new has come!…

2 Corinthians 5:16

Intimidated, Confused

It is easy to feel intimidated, even by our own thoughts and feelings.

Christ/Christus, is a pointer to Awareness/Consciousness.

"if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation" refers to you, knowingly aware of Awareness.



Sorry, I am not selling religion, I am not advertising a future happiness.

"Truth is simple, but the seeker is complex".

Suffering and pain might awaken in us a longing to look beyond the "me" we think ourself to be.

What is suffering?

Thank you Roger for hammering this home...

One half of suffering is:
guilt, blame and pride.

The other half is:
expectations and attachment to outcomes, worry and anxiety.

Suffering is attitudinal and can completely drop away.

If you are interested...